I wish you understand my silence

On days when words are absent. I hope you understand my silence.

I wish you understand my silence, that I care about you a whole lot more than I say it.

I wish you understand my silence, that I need you more when I push you away.

I wish you understand my silence, that sometimes I wish you could read my mind and tell me the things I want to hear.

I wish you understand my silence, that my emotions are the loudest when I am quiet.

I wish you could understand my silence, that when you think I am mad at you, I just want you to call my name the way you do.

I wish you could understand my silence, that I love you even when I am mad at you.

My silence means I want you to understand my mood, my non-verbal cues, when you should hold me close, and when you ask me if I am okay. And when I say “I am good” you are convinced otherwise.

Understanding my silence means that you understand my love. Having to tell you about my feelings with words when I want to communicate with silence is taking away the sweetness of the kind of love I crave from you.

In the language of love, silence speaks the loudest, when we learn it, it becomes a language of ours. I hope that you understand my silence and hear the yearnings of my love without me having to speak.